Yay! We're pregnant! I figured it was about time to share all the details with you guys. As of today we are 12 weeks and 4 days.
I have been puking up my guts and feeling miserable for the last 7 weeks but I'm trooping through, hoping for a light at the end of the tunnel. Jesse deserves Husband of the Year Award for how amazing he has been. The smell of food from the fridge makes me nauseous and I'm usually on the verge of puking anyway, making it hard to leave the couch, so he's been the maid as well. Between the cooking, the cleaning, and being there for my every need, he has 5 classes and loads and loads of homework. And this morning he graciously cleaned up all the throw up I spewed all over our just cleaned sheets and all over him. So I think we can all agree that he deserves some sort of an award! Jesse is going to be such a good daddy!
We've only had one doctors appointment where they did the regular check ups and tried to figure out how far along we were. We had a general idea of our due date and they confirmed it. But just to be sure they had us make an appointment with the ultra sound department.
When we went to our ultrasound a week later we found out that we were actually not as far along as we thought. We thought our due date would be July 24th (and that made us so excited because we knew there was a chance the baby could be born on Jesse's birthday which is July 22nd!) But they told us our new due date would be Aug. 8th, 2013. I was a little disappointed (okay...a lot. I cried in the car. I was already sick of being sick and was counting down to the 12 week mark where we knew our baby would less likely to miscarry, and when I would hopefully find relief from being sick.) However, we did hear our tiny little baby's heartbeat. No words could adequately describe how amazing that experience that is. Then it was time to see the baby on the screen. I was initially nervous and panicky thinking, "What if there was no baby?" And I felt even more fear when the screen showed...nothing! But then the ultra sound tech showed us where this ity bitty baby was. It was so small that she had to make dots on the screen to show us where it was and how big. It's crazy to think that now this baby is the size of a lime!
I surprised Jesse with the news on November 29th, the same day I found out. I kept telling him that I had some of the smaller signs of pregnancy and he told me it was all in my head. I agreed but I thought it would be fun to go to the store and get a pregnancy test anyway. I took the test and...surprise! I was pregnant! I was shocked. I was convinced I couldn't be. I kept staring at the pink straight line that meant there was a baby forming inside of me and thought, "No way!" I cried for about a half hour. I didn't know it was possible to be so happy and so afraid at the same time. When I finally stopped being a cry baby I called my husband and asked if he could home from work a little early. He said he'd try his best but wanted to know why. I didn't want to tell him on the phone so I came up with a quick lie and said I wasn't feeling good. When we got off the phone I had a hour to find the perfect way to surprise him with the news. I googled everything and didn't really care for any of the ideas. Then I thought I would put it in his pillow case but it looked funny and I also knew I couldn't wait that long for him to find out. So I decided to put it in the cubbord with the cups and bowls haha. I'm not sure why I chose that but that was the best I ended up with. When he walked in I tried to hid the tears that I would randomly stream out every 5 minutes or so. I shoved my face in the couch pillow and asked if he would get the medicine for my stomach on the top shelf he knew I couldn't reach. When he walked over the the cubbord I bolted straight up and watched. He opened the door and...just stared at it. Then after about 30 seconds picked it up and looked at it. He turned around and with the biggest smile on his face said, "Is this real?" I started balling again and he continued to just stare at it with the look of disbelief and happiness. After a couple minutes he ran over and embraced me. I whispered you're going to be a daddy and he started to tear up. Hands down one of the best moments of my life.
So yep. There you have it. That's basically the recap on the last 13 weeks of our lives. We're so excited and nervous to be parents. There are times it still feels unreal but the nausea always re-reminds me that it of course is. August 8th CANNOT come fast enough! :)